Friday, March 6th, 2009 08:27 pm
Title: Three Minutes
Author: [insanejournal.com profile] lilithilien
Fandom/Characters: Alles Was Zählt, Deniz/Roman
Word Count: 260 words
Rating: Gen
Summary: Three minutes. That's how long it takes for Deniz to fall in love.
Disclaimer: These characters belong to moonshine-addled monkeys RTL and are so very not mine.
A/N: The first AWZ muse that's reared its head in months, and it's Öztürk's? WTF? *scratches head* Okay, whatever, I won't question it. Anyway, this is for my dearest [insanejournal.com profile] aldiara, as is this vid, which hopefully will both bring her joy and make a bit more sense of this wee ficcie.


Three minutes. That's how long it takes for Deniz to fall in love.

They're a disaster, he and Roman, were from the very start. He remembers feeling so out of place that first time at Roman's flat, like the teenager that he was trying to fake it in an adult world. There they were, concerned with weddings and grown up things, while he was preoccupied with maths homework and the way his stomach did this scary flip-flop whenever anyone noticed him. And Roman's insecurities dwarfed his. They were huge glowering monstrosities that clawed at them both, scraping whatever Deniz said into unrecognisable tatters of what he'd meant, leaving his shredded words in messy piles that would take more patience than either of them owned to reassemble.

But when Roman skates, these insecurities vanish. Roman, ever graceful, is never so beautiful as when he's gliding across the ice. Watching him, Deniz feels his mind, always muddled, settle and grow clear. Roman pirouettes, his shoulders broad and inviting, and Deniz forgets the debts he has to pay. Roman leaps, indifferent to anything as petty as gravity, and Deniz forgets the fall that brought Stella crashing down. Roman spins like the fastest top, his arm stretched above him in a perfect arc, and Deniz feels the rotation pulling him in and forgets why they ever fell apart.

He will remember later, he always does. Gravity always returns, Roman's shoulder always turns cold again, and Deniz's world always spins out of control. But for now, for as long as he can make these three minutes last, Deniz is in love.


~ The End ~
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Friday, March 6th, 2009 08:25 pm (UTC)
Oh Lil. Perfect and heartbreaking. *sniffles*

But for now, for as long as he can make these three minutes last, Deniz is in love.

That just kills me.

So lovely, hon!
Friday, March 6th, 2009 08:28 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I didn't mean to make you sniffle -- but I guess it is kinda sad. Huh. *g* I just thought it was a rare moment of genuine emotion on Deniz's part -- something we haven't seen in far too long.

(Of all the muses to interrupt me when I'm trying to work on my ebook, it has to be Deniz's? I guess Aldi successfully told him to bugger off and he resorted to me.)
Friday, March 6th, 2009 08:29 pm (UTC)
And by "it" as the genuine emotion, I meant on the show. *is making no sense at all today*
Friday, March 6th, 2009 08:46 pm (UTC)
.........

Do you have any idea how much I love you right now? I'm actually crying and I totally don't care how ridiculous that is. Because this:

...and Deniz feels the rotation pulling him in and forgets why they ever fell apart.

YES. This. My god. The whole thing is just gorgeous, but I can't even comment coherently, I'm just a mess of teary joy. I love it so much. And I love you!

AND THE VID.

AND YOUR ICON.

*expires happily*
Friday, March 6th, 2009 08:59 pm (UTC)
*revives self to comment more*

Scratch that, must babble now! I lovelovelove the build-up here... the WHAM! effect of the first line and then that second paragraph laying out in such clear and unsentimental terms why they never stood a chance, why the timing was all wrong even though the passion and the emotions were all there, why Deniz couldn't possibly cope with being loved by someone like Roman in the long run and had to go fuck it up. And then the third paragraph with that gorgeous, gorgeous symmetry, each glimpse of Roman paired with the perfect reaction on Deniz's part... good god, woman, how do you do that? In one single paragraph, you've created this beautiful image that puts Deniz right there on the ice with Roman, as if it's them who're suddenly in perfect harmony, and it's so incredibly gorgeous!

And then the last part... like Shelly, I get that "oh, right... OW!" moment but I don't necessarily find it all that heart-breaking or hopeless, for some reason. Because as certainly as "gravity always returns", just as certainly does it always go away between them, and... well, look, I can't explain. I have no idea why I still have hope for this fucked-up pairing, okay? It's stupid, it's over, I should let them go with good grace. NOT HAPPENING. And for today's burst of stupid optimism, I totally blame you *G*

*hugs you so tight*
Friday, March 6th, 2009 10:10 pm (UTC)
*loves your babble*

So did you successfully convince Deniz to bugger off? Is that why he showed up in my head going writemewritemeWRITEME!!!

I feel incredibly optimistic too. And ... not that they'll put them together, because if they did it'd be a disaster (again), and tho I want to see that happen, I think it'd deserve a lot more work than I trust AWZ with these days. But some normalcy, with the two of them existing in the same world instead of continually circling like a bull circles a bullfighter with occasional ineffectual stabs? That would be such a blessing at this stage of the game.

Although why they didn't think that showing us that development over time, how they got from "neurotic ice queen" to this, and instead spent the time on Lena and Juli and Elephant Poo Girl, I will never, ever understand.

*babbles back at length*
Friday, March 6th, 2009 10:29 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I'm with you... it warms my heart to see them just have normal, believable interactions, and I really don't want AWZ to go near actual romance at this point because that'd just be a disaster. But my optimism for something down the line, at some point where they've hired new writers *cough* who can actually write *cough* and could pull off a reunion remains undiminished. I R STOOPID.

So did you successfully convince Deniz to bugger off? Is that why he showed up in my head going writemewritemeWRITEME!!!

Well, he's here right now, yelling at Roman, so he didn't bugger off for long! The little brat is just way too demanding, like if I don't write him for five seconds, he needs to go and bother you, OF WHICH I ENTIRELY APPROVE, ACTUALLY. :D
Friday, March 6th, 2009 10:17 pm (UTC)
Oh, and also ... *HUGS* I'm so glad that you liked the story!
Friday, March 6th, 2009 11:00 pm (UTC)
I LOVED IT! Go post at NoLimits! VL have overtaken us :(
Friday, March 6th, 2009 11:02 pm (UTC)
OH NOES!
Saturday, March 7th, 2009 05:00 am (UTC)
This is utter perfection!

Seriously, I love this way of looking at Deniz, at how he still feels about Roman, about their relatonship. Amazing. Why don't the AWZ writers take their cues from you?
Saturday, March 7th, 2009 10:09 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! The way he was watching, so genuinely happy, it was just inspiring. I'm so glad you liked it!

Why don't the AWZ writers take their cues from you?

Because it'd be porn. I don't know!! I ask myself this every single day!